I read your article, and i definitely empathize. At 4 months old, my son Uriel went limp (not blue), flacid, whimpered, and obviously wasnt getting enough oxygen. We measured his oxygen level and it was in the 70's, when it should be 94% minimum. He was rushed to the hospital by ambulance, and i remember thinking "Hashem, please don't let my baby die!" I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it now. Life and death situations really make you prioritize, realize what is in fact important in life. Halevai we wouldn't need those rude awakenings....
-Ronit